under the big top

somehow, in my twenty-one years of life, i had never been to the circus until a few weeks ago.

i daresay that i have never been as entertained as i was on that night.

there were acrobats, eerie dancing poodles, juggling ladies with the underside of their bum cheeks slightly exposed, bad-a guys riding a treacherous hamster wheel in nice silky shirts, roaring lions, a long-haired ringmaster, a lion tamer with spiffy diamond studs, flying russian men on stilts, lots of too-tight leotards, and delicious cotton candy.

and a partridge in a pear tree.

 

and because we are in russia, where everyone and everything is behind on the times

i felt a little bit like we had stepped back in time when we walked into the circus tent.

i'm pretty sure the show, the set, and probably a couple of the jugglers are the exact same as they were in the 1930's.

holla.

i'll have one of each, please

for reals though.

my birthday is in july.

too bad chris is married and liam is dating miley.

worst day ever.

holla.

oh hey. i've been semi dead from the blogging world,

probably because my social life is really thriving right now. lies.

or it could actually be because i'm trying to set a record for most
modern family episodes and chick flicks watched in one week.

fyi, you should probably call guiness now, cause i'm going to be famous soon!

it's been a while since i've done a dear husband post, so here you go.

Dear future husband:

After a weekend crammed full of wedding festivities,
I have a few thoughts for you:

{1} let's make our wedding a crazy fun party. 

hopefully it will fill more like a celebration of love and less like a funeral.

{2] we should will have have lots of dancing. 

{3} i hope you have good taste in music.

{4} we should laugh alot and not be afraid to make fun of ourselves, 

i feel like this will be pretty easy because you'll probably be pretty hilarious, otherwise I won't marry you. 

 {5}i think you'll probably look real good in your suit.

{6} i hope you speed and use cruise control on all of the road trips we'll take together.

{7} lets make sure our kisses aren't smooshy and nasty.

{8} lets be capricious.

{9} let's blast music real loud and sing off tune all the time.

{10} i hope you're doing great things wherever you are, and think it will be pretty good when we meet in 4 or 5 years. that'll work perfectly with my plan.

now here are a couple of pictures from said weekend to feast your eyes upon.

holla.

russia, wizard swears, and love.

so i have a whole slew of thoughts for you today.

the first one goes something like this:

okay so my thought doesn't actually have a whole lot to do with that song.

except for the fact that i'll be living in st. petersburg in august!

can i get a woot woot woot?

i'm going through ilp to teach english for a few months and am so excited!

i tried to go to china a couple years back but things didn't work out,

but i'm going to make it happen this time.

because the other day i was thinking

about how one of my biggest fears is that i'll never get to see the world.

so i said to myself "self. this is the time in your life where you can go somewhere exotic and make it happen. you are working alot (making some moolah), have nothing holding you back, yadda yadda yadda."

so i whipped myself into gear,

and then today i got my official assignment to the st. petersburg school in russia.

i am seriously so excited for this next adventure.

life is good.

now onto my second thought of the day:

last night i had a slightly scary experience. 

i was driving home in a snow storm and did a couple 360's + a 180 on some ice and came within inches of hitting a cement barricade headfirst. 

and as i was spinning out of control the only thing that escaped my lips were wizard swears.

okay so maybe they were actually muggle swears. and cue the nerd alert.

why do i tell you this?

because this experience made me think

about how i need to be a better person. 

because what if something truly terrible would have happened and they wouldn't let me into heaven because of my last words?

so i am making a vow 

an unbreakable vow perhaps? if we're sticking with the hp theme

to be a better person from this day forward.

yay for self-improvement.

and for the third and final thought of the day:

it's the day of love tomorrow.

i've noticed that valentines seems to keep coming around.

it comes every year, right on time.

it's the weirdest thing.

and every year, even if i deny it, i'm a teensy bit bitter.

because who wouldn't want flowers and to kiss a hottie man in the pouring rain and have somebody to snuggle with?

or something along those lines.

a crazy person, that's who.

but then i think about how loved i am.

i truly am surrounded by the greatest friends and family who love me.

i am so blessed to surrounded by such great people.

and so it's all good.

i'll try not to be too bitter tomorrow. 

:)

happy valentines everybody!

or in russian:

счастливая Валентина!

holla.

hey girl

if you enjoy ryan gosling who doesn't

please click here to see the most hilarious interview ever.

here's a reminder of how good looking he is, in case you somehow forgot.

self explanatory

i wouldn't mind snuggling up to somebody right about now.

while studying (of course).

dear boy: i wish you existed and that you would come on over.

i also like how i've managed to blog every day this week...

a girl just needs a little break every now and then.

holla.

let's get down to business...

...to defeat the huns.

ha. that had nothing to do with this post, it just popped into my head.

so here are some random thoughts for you.

{1} i am so insanely ready for this semester to be over.

and to be done with all of my projects and tests.

{2} because of said projects i find myself doing anything but homework these days.

and instead i end up taking photobooth pictures of myself.

vain, i know.

{3} i just took a moment to sip some hot chocolate on my balcony.

there is a full moon tonight so the ocean is lit up beautifully.

and i just sat for a moment and marveled out how truly beautiful life is.

{4} speaking of beautiful... here's one for you:

just watched crazy stupid love last night. loved it.

dear santa: this will do.

{5} i have a terrible problem where i feel like a failure at being a college student if i go to bed before two a.m. i need to get over this, because i'm real tired right now.

so. peace out. and rock on.

holla.

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an inconvenient short in my brain.

my brain has a short in it these days.

because i can't seem to remember how to firt with fine fellas.

f'real? ha. that was some crazy alliteration. has it really been that long?

now that i think about it, it has been a while.

seriously, i didn't even socialize with men my age this summer.

and at snow it was all just buddy buddy type of guys.

so i think i'm getting nervous because i'm at a new place?

and don't know if there is any potential with any of these men?

i don't really know.

but i do know that this has gotta change.

i need to be able to carry on a normal conversation with a male individual without blushing.

and also just talk and be chill. cause lately i clam up and don't even say anything.

and then i just seem like a brat.
i swear that i have never been as awkward as i was about five minutes ago.

anyways. i vow to be less awkward and more normal from hence forth.

because this is a terrible problem to have.

i'm a rusty flirter.

this is pretty much a prime example of me these days.
minus the beer.

ha ha. i googled "awkward girl" because i felt like i needed to include a picture.  and this is the gem that popped up. 

i can't explain it.

i don't know why it is,

but i really do love pretty little liars.

i just envy the perfect wardrobes. covet covet.

and sometimes it gives me spoooooky chills.

plus there are all sorts of hottie men in it. (namely ezra fitz)

i mean, how could you not have a baby crush on this man?

plus. this kiss is beautiful. i don't care who you are, you have to agree.

i can't explain the slight obsession i have with this show.
i'm a little bit ridiculous. and maybe slightly pathetic.

oh well.

holla.